I tried to return to my old life but I kept crashing into walls, physically, mentally and emotionally. Setting myself further and further back. I was exhausted, confused, and spiralling into depression. My energy was gone. I felt completely broken; more sick and tired then I was before the treatment, and at a complete loss of why I was feeling that way, or how to get myself out of the cycle.

I reached out for support. But the services available were focused on those still in treatment. My needs had changed. I wanted guidance to rebuild my life on my own terms, in my new body, with my new mindset. I didn't need to be looked after, I needed to learn to look after myself. And I couldn’t find anyone speaking to me that way. There was very little conversation around life after cancer. Especially for women who wanted to thrive, not just survive.

So I started rebuilding my life, layer by layer. With a long history of health and wellbeing, I began studying, researching, and asking questions, so many questions. I spoke to experts across nutrition, movement, skincare, psychology and more. Some things helped, some didn’t. Slowly, I pieced together what worked for me, making choices that were informed, intentional, and kind.

I re-learned how to nourish my body. How to manage the long term side affects of treatment. How to feel sexy, strong, and safe in myself. I dedicated all my time, energy, and money to this journey and over the years, I started to feel better than I ever had before.

I can honestly say I’ve never been healthier or happier in my adult life.

And I’m not alone. Sharing my recovery online, I’ve connected with hundreds of women who’ve felt the same; lost, unsupported, confused, and determined to take control of their lives after cancer.